The meeting – Fiction part 1

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Vikram, Karan and I had become friends on the very first day of college as we stood in the queue registering for a badge, we clicked instantly. Vikram looked a complete nerd and there wasn’t a thing Karan would not pass a joke on, and his jokes were not just hilarious but meaningful too. I don’t know what I was doing between them, neither was I studious nor crazy hilarious. I was just a normal guy who knew was charming but hadn’t thought of testing it.

I realised the need when I first saw her. Yes, that Friday when I kissed the head of this almost going bald guy next to me to have dragged me in the room where she was. These cultural activities made no sense to me when I could experiment my code in the computer lab. I always wondered what would the students be taught in a commerce or an arts stream? But that day was different, I as always was hastily running adjusting my laptop bag when I saw Prof. Shyamsundar walking towards me, there was a wild rumour that he would catch hold of students and give them random assignments that were tiresome and made no sense and I didn’t want to fall prey to this tittle-tattle. I dodged behind the guy with a shiny head and he suddenly turned left into a room, to avoid direct confrontation I turned too and that was it.

I stood behind the door for prof to pass when I heard her the first time, her voice was feminine but not shrill or thin. I tried to turn and get a glimpse but there was silence, I took a step towards the door and she spoke again. My intrigue grew and I turned to see her face, a small group surrounded the chair on which she was standing.

She spoke again, it sounded like she was reciting something, after hanging on her words a bit more yes it was a poetry in Urdu. Poetry isn’t my thing and Urdu well let’s leave it at that. But I had to see the face, I made my way through the group and there she was.

Sheets of paper in her hand, her face beamed with the love for what she was reciting. She wore a beautiful white chudidar with a red duppatta that kept dropping off her shoulder and she gracefully placed it again on her shoulder. Her silver earrings kept kissing her tender neck as she spoke. a bunch of silver bangles clung giving perfect rhyme to her words, I noticed her big black kohled eyes that conveyed more than her words. I gazed at her full lips as they lay over each other every time she paused. I was transfixed in that moment as her words echoed,

“Do you want these?” it echoed again

“hey”she moved her hand in front of my eyes and smiled “do you want the copies?”

I took them as she smilingly handed them to all others around, I turned picked my laptop bag in one hand and stormed out.

I had read that paper she handed me a zillion times by evening, sometimes sitting on my hostel room floor or the parapet of the balcony, on the toilet seat and lying on the bed.

Shayri Exchange it titled.

ज़िन्दगी की किताब से इक पन्ना छूट सा रहा है

मुक़द्दर फिर से कुछ रूठ सा रहा है

पलों को क़ैद कर रिश्तों को रुखसत किये जाते रहे

तक़दीर कभी हमें हम तक़दीर को आज़माते रहे

– Ananya , 2nd year B.Comm, Roll No. 135

That made no sense to me but that paper was invaluable, it had her name on it and the name was beautiful, I don’t remember the number of times I would have said it to myself. I slept thinking about fictional scenarios of our meeting, my first words to her and thinking if she would like my name as much as I did, how would it be to hear Rohan in her mesmerising voice. I started building fiction stories in my mind!

The next morning I was more energetic than ever, I wanted to reach college and meet Ananya, I wanted to know more about her, listen to her and put my charm to test. It was then that I realised my roommate was quizzically looking at my grinning face.

Dressing up was not that difficult, I paired an Ed Hardy black tee, put on a white shirt and denim, a quick look at myself in the mirror, tall, dark and handsome….do girls seriously believe in this shit, swiftly I adjusted my spikes picked my laptop back and rushed to college.

Where do I start, I cursed myself for not having friends in other streams. In my random obliviousness I somehow remembered Vikram having a huge crush on this 2 year B.Comm girl who he had spotted in the library. I rushed to the library and there he was sitting in an angle where he could eye her.

“Can you ask that girl about Ananya?” I blasted panting.

“Shhh” he looked at me.

Why don’t people understand the emergency? I calmed myself

“Hey Vikram, ask your chick if she knows a girl named Ananya?”

“Who do I ask, damn I have never spoken to her. We are still in the first step, talking through eyes, I just know her name.”

I left, this nerd can’t be of any help. Just outside the library I bumped into Kiran, “Hey dude watchout….the shatabdi is at 13.25.”

Kiran, she was the sunrays I was looking for, 5.10, well built with a squeaky voice she was always found among guys giving them advice from love, how to date to what to wear…..famously known as love guru.

“K..kk…kk…Kiran.”I blurted…as she gave me a nasty smile..

“No.that wasn’t deliberate. Ananya.”I paused

“2nd year B.com, roll no. 135 stays alone here in Indore, parents in Mumbai, classy sassy, quite popular among you species ”she looked at me top to bottom paused…”don’t even try”

I raised my eyebrows, I hadn’t heard any of what she said, all I knew was she knew her.

“Please Kiran get me her number !!”

“ok 250 bucks”

“and an intro?”

“500 plus a month of canteen bill!”

“done!”

“Monday, commerce wing, 2nd floor corridor, 4 pm.”

Meeting Ananya wasn’t far at all!

to be continued…..

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Gone are the days of long fiction but the love for it always stays 🙂 Happy Dusshera 🙂

An unusual love letter

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My post is a hope and motivation filled dedication to all Paraplegia patients in the world. Paraplegia is a spinal cord injury that results in an impairment in motor or sensory function of the lower half of a person’s body. In India there are around 10,000 new cases out of which 82% are men in the age group of 18-30 years. You can read more here

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Bang Bang – That Awful Sound!

Ananya clad in a burka just to avoid acquaintances, turned right onto the narrow Barauni lane, she read the piece of paper from under her veil, Room no 113, Kisbar makaan, Barauni road, Bihar 851116 it read. She was in the right lane as she paced to find the said building.

“Bhaijaan….Bhaijaan” she hushed knocking the door.

“ji, aayiye.” Abdul said opening the door.

“Is it ready?” enquired Ananya.

“How many?” questioned Abdul.

“Two.” confirmed Ananya.

“Ok.” Abdul walked to the other room where the karigars (workers) were seated engrossed working. Ananya sat on a rolled cotton mattresses looking nervously around the dusty dingy room. She kept shaking her legs making her restlessness evident. Abdul returned in 5 minutes. She got up but again sat down after Abdul gestured her to do so.

“These are the best handmade pistols in India. Munger made pistol come with a guarantee of never giving up on the owner. “ he said with utmost pride assembling the pistols.

“One magazine is free with each piece. Hope you know how to operate it? Do you want it for yourself? Why two?” He looked at her handing one of them on her hand.

“No…no I don’t.” As Ananya held it with trembling hands.

Adbul demoed it to her without firing a shot. Ananya tried it on another the same way. He wrapped both in a piece of cloth and gave it to her.”

“I am giving this to you as you are Nisreen’s friend. Handle with care, it’s no joke.” He warned her.

Ananya kept the wrapped pieces in her bag that hung from her shoulder. “ji bhaijaan.” She responded handing over the bundle of notes to Abdul. “It’s as agreed 30 for 2.”

“Where did you arrange this Ananya?” he questioned again.

Ananya just turned and walked silently, she would never tell anyone that she robbed her own house of the money kept for her marriage.

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“True lovers we are.” Anupam said in a confident tone kissing Ananya’s forehead. He scanned the surroundings swiftly not a soul except for the maize crop that swayed with the wind.

“My parents will never agree or understand our true love. They have never understood me in the past 16 years.” Ananya said handing over the cloth wrapped pistol.

“I know, I know. My family is my father and where has he understood me in past 23 years, I never tried convincing him for any girl I had an affair with earlier, I love you truly and tried telling him and what did I get a slap in return. No one can understand us Ananya, no one. Have you not heard of all the true love stories, the give up on their lives for oneness.” Spoke Anupam boastfully.

“My ma loves me a lot; I don’t know what will happen of her. My father, I am the only child. I am scared Anupam, are we doing right?” Ananya was scared and sceptical.

“I always knew your love was not true. True lovers never question, they just sacrifice. They don’t chicken out like you. What will you love when you can’t do this much. You are ordinary just like others. ” Exclaimed Anupam angrily.

“No, please don’t be upset. I know this is the only way to be together. I have faith. I will do anything for our union, our oneness.” She said picking up the pistol.

“Okay.” Anupam picked the pistol too.

“Now listen to me carefully. I will count 3….2….and at the count of 1, we both say I love you and shoot. Here…” he said pointing at his heart. They both stood up, he smooched her deep before pushing her a foot apart pointing the pistol at her. Ananya tried to hold the pistol straight with unsteady hands.

“3….” Anupam said aloud.

“2….” He continued.

“1…..”

“I love….” Ananya whispered with a choked voice tears rolling down her face.

A gun shot disturbed all the birds as they scattered in the evening sky chirping loud. One body fell on the ground with a bullet hit in the head. Anupam walked towards her, shook the body with his foot. He pulled her dupatta and placed it on her head. He walked away smiling without remorse screaming “I love you Ananya, I love you…..Love…hahah…my foot.”  His phone rang, the name flashed Nisreen.

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The Case of the Missing Wife Closed (concluding part)

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My post The Case of the Missing Wife was to end in one part, however on demand and for my friends I try my hand at the concluding part. Hope I do some justice and is a good read. For part one please read here .

“What is your wife’s name?”

“huh….” A startled Rohan looked blankly at  Nirman, the officer in charge.

“An…An…Ananya…” He said petrified.

Dragging the hanging light bulb straight on his face, he shouted again, “And yours?”

“Mine…I…I don’t know.” He said with a feeble voice placing his hand on his eyes to avoid the blazing light.

“Look, my wife is not there, please find her, we came by car from Mumbai to Pune.” He continued pleading.

“Sir, the forensic report is out.” Another officer, Ravi whispered in Nirman’s ear.

“Get his clothes off and try to get any DNA trace of his wife, hair strand, nail, and skin anything from his clothes. Call Dr. Sridhar to crack this nut.” He walked out leaving Rohan and Ravi in the room.

“Remove your clothes and leave them on the table. I will be back.” Said Ravi.

“What have I done officer?” Rohan asked worriedly.

Ravi took his clothes leaving him naked in the cell. He left him for almost 30 minutes, sometimes humiliation works in getting the truth out.

“Where are his clothes? Get him his clothes now.” Said Dr. Sridhar as he entered the cell seeing Rohan coiled in a corner naked.

“Don’t you worry son. These people cannot harm you. Here take these clothes.” He offered a fresh pair.

“So what is your name son?” he asked pulling out a pen and a paper.

“Mine…I think I know…” he tried thinking hard, “Rohan…..that’s my name…I think.”

“And your wife’s? She was with you right in the car?”

“Yes, Ananya, we were in car, together.”

“Who was driving?”

“I drove her to Pune.”

Sridhar looked at the FIR which said the woman was in the driver’s seat.

“What time was it when you reached Pune?”

“I don’t remember, it was late and dark.”

“Did you park the car in the underground parking or outside the hotel?”

“I don’t remember, sir.”

“Ok, don’t stress. So which room did your wife choose?”

“No, it feels things are fading now. The receptionist asked me something and I looked at her and she nodded but said nothing.”

Just then Nirman barged in, “Did this jerk speak up? When some of his nails will be pulled or fingers cut he will blurt all.” He said looking straight at Rohan.

“Look son, try to tell me, once it goes out of my hands, I won’t be able to help you.”  Dr. Sridhar pacified him.

“I really don’t remember doctor, I wish I did. Why do you say these things? Rather than finding my wife, you are questioning me?” Rohan almost broke down and started sobbing loudly.

Dr. Sridhar looked at Nirman and passed the note that mentioned,

Post Traumatic Amnesia – disoriented – confused, highly distractractable, difficulty with thinking, memory and concentration and afraid, dis-inhibited, agitated and emotionally labile, hallucinating.

As the last resort to get him back to reality, Nirman placed a packet and some photographs in front of him. “Are these yours or your wife’s?”

“Yes, where did you get these, this ring, this mangalsutra its damaged, melted..this watch I gifted her..He picked the photo of a seared body….”Ananya….” He shouted recognising the face from the burnt contours.

He uncontrollable cried for hours before accepting and getting back his reality.

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“Hope you denied the travel to your boss for the project Ananya?” retorted Rohan.

“No, I haven’t, it’s a big opportunity honey, I think we should think about it.” She explained.

“No way, it’s for 6 months for God’s sake, you cannot go, period. No discussion.” He flared.

“Yes, you rule my life, don’t you? Where am I ever asked my decision ever? You say no means no.”

“Stop it Ananya, you know that’s untrue.” He shouted but she continued her nag.

“When have I got the freedom to do things, like you decide I should come to Pune, so I should. Do I have a choice?” there had been no pleasant talk since the time the project opportunity had come.

Rohan being short tempered had lost it by then. He pulled the emergency brakes and hopped out of the car. “Why don’t you understand, I can’t live without you. Just go I will walk up to the hotel; take this car and go where you want. You are free now.” Were his words before stepping out?

Ananya tried to release her seat belt and move to the driver’s seat in a rage. A multi-axle trailer sped honking behind her as she tried to move to the driver’s seat. Rohan on the other side of the road turned and tried to run towards the car seeing the trailer speeding close. Before he could get anywhere closer the trailer collided with the car and caught fire. Rohan froze at that instance, he was shocked, shaken, he just turned and started walking.

Nirman stamped the file as Case closed.

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The Infinite Wait

 
„Are you upset at me, again? “ Ananya asked lovingly.

“Look, Anupam, I don’t like to be late on purpose you know
that. Now stop looking at me like that with a sullen face please.” She said
pushing the bunch of yellow lilies towards him.

One of the lilies moved with the breeze and touched his
face. She picked it, kissed it and kept it back again.

He always called her in this garden when the world would
want to meet for movies, coffee or restaurants. She felt it was their time
together where she could always talk at length, free without being nudged by
anyone.  

“Did I tell you about my dream…of course it was our dream?”
He remained silent looking at her radiant face and a strand of hair constantly
flowing from her cheek and getting stuck to her lips as she spoke. As the zephyr
played with her hair, she pulled the strand and neatly tucked it behind her ear
and it playfully flew on her cheek again. She let it be.

Anupam looked affectionately,
this dream came in as a harbinger
of the same story she repeated every time they met.

She started,” We
were sitting in this same park, talking sweet nothings to each other. Planning
the way we would want our parents to know about us. You did suggest you being
the only child of your parents; they should come and talk to mine.”

A ball came and
hit Anupam’s leg. Ananya playfully picked it up and threw it towards the child
and continued. “My brother came and asked me to reach home urgently as Ma had
fallen off the stairs. You immediately asked me to rush and promised me to come
back and meet you in this park.”

“Anupam, since
that day I have been coming here to meet you and ask you what happened and you
have just chosen to not respond.”

He said nothing
and sat in deadening stillness.

She too sat there
in silence, whining and coaxing to get an answer but in vain. The ingénue Ananya
as always picked up the flowers left it near him and left with a promise to
meet the next day.
 
मज़ार  -ए -कैस पर जब रूहे लैला इक दिन आयी 
तोह अरमानों के मुरझाए कुछ फूल भी लायी 
लगी जब फूल वह रखने तोह कब्र से आवाज़ आयी 
चढ़ाना फूल जानेमन मगर आहिस्ता आहिस्ता। 

The Two Incomplete Halves.

 
 
She was
feeling everyone stare at her as she walked into the canteen to have tea.

“Do you
see her bob cut hair?” Shilpa whispered.

“And
where’s her cigarette, didn’t see her pack since morning.” Viral added.

“That’s what
rehabs do, don’t they? They get you rid of certain habits.” Shilpa chuckled
again.
Avoiding all the talk Ananya darted her way to the
farthest table of the canteen. She looked at her watch, it was just 16.00, two
more hours to go and she can avoid all talk and leave office, she thought to herself.
Ananya felt utterly disconcerted.

Just a table away, “Look Ananya is back, wo…she
looks different.”

“Yeah, she looks hotter with the new look.”

“No I mean, looks like her rehab rumor and 3 month sabbatical
sounds real now.”

“Wasn’t she involved with that tall guy?”

“Of course she was, in fact he left her I hear.”

“Anyway she is not worth it, sad, depressed.”

In trepidation Ananya grabbed her tea cup with both
hands and closed her eyes squeezing the cup hard trying to meditate and count
from 10 to 1 as the therapist had instructed in case she felt anxious and needed
to avoid negative thoughts.

10…

 “Why can’t
we be together Ananya?

09…..

“My parents would never agree to me marrying a non-Brahmin,
Rohan.”

08…

“We love each other, tell your parents nothing can
come between us.”

07…..

“Why don’t you understand, my parents have told me
to be away and not talk to you.”

06….

“Tell those pricks, enough is enough. Stop getting
emotionally blackmailed. Or else I will lose it.”

05….

“Why lose it Rohan, don’t say a word to my parents
ok?”

04….

“They are, in fact they are the worst parents
anyone can have, and they don’t understand your wishes. I will show them what I
am; they need to be taught a lesson.”

03….

“Stttoppp ittt Rohaaan, yooou starttted agaaiin.
Mmmy parrrentsss arree aaall I hhave; theeey hhhave ddd..done eeeverything fo..fo..foor
me. D..D..Don’t you abussse th..them.”

02….

“Ananya, I have lost it. Listen I don’t want a
thing from you. Just get lost you stammering b**** and ask your parents too.
You don’t deserve me. You are nothing but an incomplete sick stammering woman. I
leave you now.”

01…..

“R..R…R..Rohan…..”

00

“A…Ann..Annnaya.”

Ananya slammed a tight slap on his face as she
opened her eyes in rage. She was pulled back to reality. He stood there holding
his red cheek, tears welled up.

“The…teaaa..wwasss …spilllinnngg…ittt..woulldd…sc..sc..scald…you.
Sooo..ii thougghhtt …buutt you..”

“Yooou staaammmer? Whattt’s youuur n…name?” Ananya
asked looking straight into his eyes.

“A..A..A…Anupam.”

Ananya’s anxiety melted in a second. She had met
someone who was like her, a mirror image.

“D..D…D..Do yyou want tea?” The conversation had
just begun between the two incomplete halves.

 Note: Neither Ananya nor Anupam with their stammering were never incomplete, incomplete were those who could not understand them.

 

Sharmaji ka Happy Birthday!

„Hello Madam “Sharmaji yelled, looking up from his balcony
at the flat above. “You, madam, yellow sari. Stop drying your clothes here, all
water drops on my plants. My coriander has died twice.” He tried looking up
again when a splash of water fell on his face along with the blouse that rested
straight on his spectacles.

“Aye, uncle, whom are you calling yellow sari. If I don’t dry
my clothes in balcony where do I?” Leena stretched her vocals to reach Sharma’s ears.

Loveleen ran to the balcony and pushed Sharmaji, “Arre
Leenaji, please do dry your clothes and don’t mind what Sharmaji just said.”

She held him by his arm and as he moved the piece of cloth
and tried cleaning the lens “Don’t you realise she gives us curd, sugar when we
run out of it, I have few friends don’t you get cross at her.”

Sharmaji got busy reading the maintenance bill dated 25th
July, 2014 (today) adjusting his spectacles not heeding to any of what his wife
said.

Meet Vinod Sharma, 44 year old, sorry 43 years, 11 months
and 29 days old insurance agent with State bank of India.  He stays in a 1 BHK house in Dadar with his
wife Loveleen (38) and 2 daughters Pinky (16) and Gutti (12).

“Oh that Tiwari has again charged me interest on maintenance;
I will show him now and teach him what he has not learnt in his MBA.” He murmured
frustrated wearing his shirt.

“Sharmaji, don’t wear the shirt out and comb your hair
before going. No doubt people call me your eldest daughter. Do get your medical
report before coming.”

Sharmaji opened the door “I will get that tomorrow, Loveleen”
and Pinky barged in, “Hi dad.”

“Call me papa.” He muttered still engrossed reading the bill
walking out.

“Mom, we will have a surprise party for dad’s birthday day
after. My friend, Joe has started a DJ and catering service. I have promised
him to be his first good luck customer.” Pinky exclaimed in a typical teenager tone.

“Do what you like, we have a budget of Rs. 2000 including
gift. You have to manage in that.” Loveleen warned.

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“Hello, myself Vinod Sharma, have my reports arrived?”
Sharmaji enquired at the hospital.

“Gupte, get me Sharma’s report, put on today’s date, 26th
July; 2014” retorted the plump lab assistant of DR. Shroff.  Gupte, a 68 year old admin found Sharmaji’s
report among the lot that was stacked and handed it to the assistant.

“Take the report and wait for the doctor, he wants to meet
you.” She directed Sharmaji.

Sharmaji sat on the posh leather sofa thinking these hospitals
are no less than a 5 star hotels. He looked at the semi-nude paintings from a renowned
painter what they these days call as investments. The 3 Sony LEDs played
different channels as people in the waiting room got glued to each of them. The
audience was clear, the 50 plus to the screen playing news, the women on the
daily soap operas and the youngsters which had a B grade hero moving his booty
to a C grade song, which after putting on spectacles read TOOH, whatever it meant.

“Vinod Sharma, third cabin from left.” the lab assistant called
out.

“Sharmaji, do you have a very hectic life, are you too
stressed?” Dr. Shroff was a leading Oncologist in town. Sharmaji has a family
history of cancer and thus had a norm of getting a yearly regular check-up.

“No, why doctor.I mean who doesn’t these days.” Sharmaji asked puzzled.

“See it happens, life these days is stressful and there are
treatments for everything.” said the doctor patiently.

“Doctor, what are you talking about? What has happened to
me? Be clear before my heart pops out of my body.” Sharmaji said nervously fidgeting
with his shirt corner.

“Ok, you have a rare cancer; it is grade III and stage III.
Not much can be done but treatment and hope.”

Sharmaji could not believe what he had just heard. There was
no point in doubting the doctor. The drudgeries of life had made him restless,
anxious and to an extent pessimist.

“How much time do I have, doctor?” The typical filmy
question, as he wiped the sweat of his brow and tears that had welled up under his glasses.

“4-6 months, with treatment we can delay it, don’t you
worry.” Doctor placed his hand on Sharmaji’s trying to give hope.

“I am a dying man, what difference does it make 6 months or a year”
Sharmaji stood up dejected, picked up his report and turned to leave.

He kept reading the report  which made no sense to him listening
to zindagi kaisi hai paheli haaye that played the autorickshaw…..thinking
of his investments and insurance policy that he can leave for his family.

Sharma reached home, did not eat lunch and had a few morsels
for dinner. He started looking more ill than he felt. His voice mellowed with
every response to his family. He kissed his daughters again and again.

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“How many times have I told you, do not watch movies early
morning?” He yelled at Gutti.

“Dad, it’s not morning, its 10 am and its 27th July,
2014, a Sunday!” She energetically said.

Brought back to reality, Sharma opened his diary (he decided
to keep one since he left the doctors) and marked the day in tally mark III,
“yes beta, Please watch, by the way what movie are you watching.” He said
in the softest tone his daughter had ever heard.

“Eh?” she said surprised at his tone. “Dasvidaniya, meaning
goodbye, the best part is the hero puts on the list of ten things to be done before death.” She replies her
eyes glued to the TV.

“Oh, who can relate it more than me?” He whispered to
himself, thinking no one remembers his birthday.. Well good for them, they will
get over my loss soon, thinking to himself.

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Sharmaji had slept more in the last three days than he had
in the entire month. After all he was suffering from a fatal disease and had
only some time left. He got up from his bed at 7.00 pm and walked to the living
room.

“Happpppyyyy Birthday Dad!!!!¨” cheered Pinky among all the
relatives and friends.

“Call me pa….You can call me dad” he said with a half-smile
as people surrounded to wish him.

He was overwhelmed, nervous, and sad but had thought of
keeping all happy for whatever of him was left.

Relatives made merry, talked to him and his answers got even
more philosophical.

The DJ blew the speakers as his daughters and friends danced
to TOOH. Loveleen served starters as Sharmaji sat at the table looking at the
burning candles on the cake.

“Sharmaji, I am extremely sorry, I will not dry my clothes
in the balcony now and you can eat your coriander.” Leena chuckled.

“Your clothes have more life than I do, I am a dying
coriander.” said Sharmaji.

“Oh you are a humorous man.” Leena replied.

What a dying man has but humor, Sharma thought to himself
when Loveleen gestured him to attend a phone call for him.  

He picked up with a more than sad “Hello, myself Vinod
Sharma.”

“Sharmaji, I am lab assistant from Dr. Shroff’s hospital, I am
really sorry the report you have is of another patient. Your reports are normal
and you have no cancer. Our admin, Gupte, not being good at computers, typed
the wrong name and mixed it. We are really sorry. Please forgive this. You have no disease.”
The line cut abruptly.

Sharma could not believe what he has just heard. On one hand
he was angry at the so called high class hospitals but the happiness exceeded his
anger, he ran to the room like a guy in his 20’s and shouted out of happiness.
He relished the starters and the cake, joked and lightly flirted with Leena and
even danced to TOOH. However Vinod Sharma being him, did not forget to ask the
DJ how much had his daughters blew cash on his birthday.

 

Ani….The Girl Next Door!

“Can you repeat the drink and make it on the rocks” she said in a dejected feeble voice looking away from the bartender. She thought that in the journey she had lost the woman she once was, aggressive, confident and full of life. “Mam here’s your drink, would you like something to eat too” she did not answer to the bartender’s question. She was lost in the thoughts of what had been happening for the past one year. She loved him, had become very dependent on him and he loved her too but his anger had no bounds. She was high after her fourth drink but still the evening scar was fresh in her mind. She still remembered the fight they had in the car on the busy streets of Mathura road. “How can you not speak to your parents about us? They got you engaged, you said nothing and still you don’t want to speak to them about us? What do I ask for just us being together, just your hand. This has been going on for six months now.” Rohan’s rage was not a surprise to Ani. They had been together for 3 years now. But since she had been engaged to her parents’ wishes things had been worse. “I hate you for the way you are. Women like you who cannot make decisions have no right to live.” Tears rolled from Ani’s eyes she said nothing and as the car stopped at the signal she quietly got down.” She crossed over to the other side not noticing the speeding car through her tearful eyes. The car braked hard just missing her by an inch. The driver rolled the window to shout out “why are you using my car to die, there are other ways too, try those.” She looked at him and moved away.

“Mam here’s your phone, the charger is not working, and the battery is breathing its last.” Ani was brought to the present by the bartender. She took at the phone and kept aside and sipped the last bit of the drink left in her glass. “rrrrepeaat pleassse” is all she could say. The bartender cautioned her “Mam I suggest you shouldn’t have more, how will you go home?” Ani smiled and thought why would she go home now? She was here so that she could not be in her senses and be brave enough to end her life. It would pain less then she wondered. Rohan found her meek and unwanted, her parents did not understand her and there was no motive to go on further she thought. She picked her mobile and started reading the text messages. They were the only support that would bring her back when Rohan fought with her. He would then send a message apologizing for his hot temper and saying nice things to her. There were no messages this time though it had been six hours since she got down from the car. She clicked on new message and typed “your worry is over now” and sent flashed on the mobile. She sipped the drink as she was ready for what she had come to this dingy bar in Khan Market for. She couldn’t imagine that Rohan and she had spent hours at the Barista opposite this bar whispering sweet nothings to each other and today she was here to see her last bit. The phone beeped and Rohan messaged “where are you, I hope you are not at some ……….” The cell phone battery died.

The bar was abuzz now and people were staring at the pretty woman at the corner table sitting alone. Ani had given up on things but was not aware of the consequences could be. She was almost five drinks down and was not in a position to look around. Her head had started pounding hard and the rock music was hitting her badly. The stout bar owner was observing her from the last three hours and now knew that she wouldn’t take more. The group of young boys who just entered wanted the table and so he gestured the bartender to ask her to vacant the table. The bartender politely asked her if she would like to order something to eat. He was aware of how fast she has drunk. He was also aware that her mobile had given up and she was in no state to go home, he too was on duty and couldn’t do much. Ani instead asked for the cheque. She couldn’t read the amount on the bill, she dug her hand in the large purse she carried and pulled her hand out. It was the bottle of sleeping pills she had purchased in the evening telling the chemist she will get the prescription in half an hour. After a lot of effort she placed a thousand rupee note and tried to get up. She dropped on the seat. She again tried and got up. She felt extremely dizzy and nauseatic and could barely place her feet firm on the floor. The bar was dark and as she moved to the staircase, she held the railing and tried to concentrate on the steps. The stout bar owner followed her. The staircase was narrow and the bar owner stood behind her and whispered, where do you stay? Should I drop you home?”

Ani had a shocked expression when she turned towards him. She in one minute realized what trouble she was in and the consequences could be rude. She wanted to hurry and run towards the last step and out of the door but her senses gave way. She held the railing tight, her palms sweaty as she stepped down, the bar owner following her. The minute she opened the door there was gush of cool breeze that wrapped her. She missed a step on the road and fell on her knees. The bar owner had now closed in was about to pick her up as she muttered ‘please don’t’. She now knew she was in trouble and she wanted to end her life but not fall into wrong hands. The street was filled with people who had come to unwind after a day’s hard work and Ani was trying to make her way through the people. High alcohol consumption can disrupt the brain’s judgement of distances and heights. Same was Ani’s state at this time. She could see people looking at her and she was not finding it decent. Just try to cross the street and hopefully an auto could take me to my hostel she told herself. Now another group was passing comments on if they would take her where she wanted to go. Ani was not just awkward but also vulnerable and helpless as she had no control on herself.

She tried to hurry before the men closed in. They almost circled her on the end of the street. She had tears rolling and from the corner she was the white Santro DL2C ADXXXX with the door wide open. She saw Rohan rush towards her and push people aside saying she is with me, move away. He grabbed her in his arms and she held her shirt and burst in tears. He was the support she was trying to cling on to in order to get her feet firm on the road. He quickly made her sit in the car and got behind the wheel speaking aloud, “Do you know what I have gone through from the time I got your text message to reaching here. What if my gut feel would have been wrong. Do you realize you are so valuable to me? How could you even do this?”

She was almost unconscious as she knew she was in the safest hands in the world and just kept blabbering “I love you Rohan”

You may think if this is a movie part or a novel chapter….i think just one thing…Life’s Like That….

MEN ARE LIKE RUBBER BANDS!!

John Gray in his book Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus talks of men having an intimacy cycle which is much like a rubber band….

“they instinctively pull away. It is not a decision or a choice. It just happens. It is neither his fault nor her fault. It’s a natural cycle”

I agree with Gray on men being like rubber bands but it is not his decision or choice……nor his fault….dude is in serious misconception there!

Am sure all my women friends will have a déjà vu feeling when they hear the words…I am blank…a standard connotation used by the rightly called rubber bands  Interestingly my interpretation goes that men pull back as much as they can and then get reminded….some things would require mademoiselle and thus the rubber band is back to position!

So to be more precise John Gray also describes that men who are habitually insensitive or unavailable and who come to women when they need an ego boost or in his words get generally to get his needs met (mostly emotional) without fulfilling her needs…. here he got it right again but I see a different pattern now…

In these changing times we all, both men and women can have phases of being less tolerant and emotionally insensitive. With the high divorce rates and break-ups sky rocketing it is very natural to not be able to emotionally engage with someone on a healthy level for long periods of time.

For me it’s about foundation….the stone on which the relationship is based…if that stepping stone is strong…..let the rubber band stretch… it will surely come to position. Whatever we say both the sexes fail to exist without each other and for once let us women too agree…they aren’t that bad…it’s all on us to recognize if it’s not being a rubber band that comes back only to get the way and back again or a rubber band that stretches so much that breaks.

The argument continues……..

I will leave you on the fence with this liner from fml: ‘Today, my friend told me men can’t be trusted. I told her that wasn’t true; I have my husband’s password to his email but I never check it because I trust him. She bet me he was doing something bad, and to prove her wrong I looked. Turns out he has been cheating on me for 8 months’

Thoughts anyone……